yawn. sigh. blah.
May 26. 2000

Things have been sporadic here at Hejira. But we are now fully functional once again, and are here to serve all of your online journalling needs.

I did get the job at the Unnamed Computer Place, by the way. I found out like a week and a half ago but due to my general slackerness I'm only telling you now. I'm only telling you now because it's been first and foremost on my mind because I start Tuesday. This would not be a big deal except:

  • It's my first full time job EVER. It's pathetic, I know, I'm 19 years old and have never worked a forty hour week. This I am most worried about, because I don't know if I'll have the stamina to swing it. Oh well...I'll have to swing it. Not much choice at this point.
  • First experience in the corporate world. As corporate as the world can be in Lebanon, PA, that is. Can I muster enough bullshit?
  • The bullshit itself. Motivational meetings. Thinking outside the box. Corporate drone? Just a girl in a tie? Yikes.
  • My god, will there be dress codes? Will I have to wear a hairnet?
  • Am I going to be bored out of my mind?

    But I have to take this job because:

  • I need the money. I'm living alone next year.
  • If I don't have a job, my parents will murder me. Simple as that.
  • I need the money. Digital cameras don't pay for themselves.
  • If I don't have a job, I will be in the slackerish and miserable mode that I am in now for the rest of the summer.
  • I need the money.

    I wish I could be all "Hi ho, it's off to work we go" about it. The great American work ethic or something. Truth is, I am scared about working at the Unnamed Computer Place. Will I be good enough? Will they look at me, 19 years old, and just laugh at me? Will I qualify for stock options?

    Seriously, though, I know if I don't have something to structure my days, I'd fall back into the land of slackerdom in which I am currently wallowing. And I don't want to that to happen. This summer was supposed to be the turning point. I hope it still can be.


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